Nov. 11th, 2008 01:56 pm
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I got this from [livejournal.com profile] izzanami . And while I am gay and living in a country with better gay rights than in the US or elsewhere in the world it does not give me the right to turn my back...

I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.
I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.
I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.
We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.
I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.
I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.
I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.
I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.
We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.
I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.
I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.
I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.
I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.
I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.
I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.
I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.
I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I did not have to always deal with society hating me.
I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.
I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.
I am the person who is afraid of telling his loving Christian parents he loves another male.

Re-post this if you believe homophobia is wrong. Please do your part to end it.
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First, a meme started by [livejournal.com profile] kittydesade again.

To commemorate, in its own way, the passing of Prop 8, write slash. Not random PWP sex-slash, but loving committed relationships slash. Two people who love each other deeply and want to be together, to share their lives together, as simple as that.

Then.. I cannot for the life in me understand why laws must be put in action to prevent gay people from marrying. (I agree with [livejournal.com profile] vexed_wench with first cousins marrying being kinda creepy. I thought about it on my situation, it would mean my hypothetical possible child marrying my sisters baby... Meaning that my niece/nephew would marry my kid. And that just feels kinda... creepy.)

I'm not American so this law doesn't touch me. In Finland I can marry (being gay) if I wish. Though I think I'd need a girlfriend for that. XD And even here the law was very much opposed by the church. The Lutheran and Orthodox churches are national churches by constitution and their opposition is the reason why gay people can't have a church wedding, there had been much recent hassle about priests blessing a gay union after a civil ceremony. With it being okay for buildings and stuff I cannot see why it should be bad for people.O_o

I don't have a religion so the church thing doesn't affect me. What does (in being gay) is the certain stigma I still feel is attached to being homosexual. Homosexuality was a crime until 1971, a mental illness until 1981 and we had a 'anti-suggestion law' regarding homosexuality that was only abolished in 1999. It meant that you couldn't encourage anyone to be gay, meaning that all gay pride rallies were basically a crime and you couldn't broadcast fact programmes about gays on TV. The law was never really enforced, in the early 1990's some activists actually gave themselves in for having broken the law in an attempt to bring to light the insanity of the law but they weren't prosecuted and it took years to finally get rid of the law.

Anyway... I had a point somewhere in this ranty post. Being gay, or whatever, has taken me a long time to accept. I'm now 23 and I'm still second guessing myself on that score. There are society's double standards that make me question myself. Lesbian porn for men. The lack of non-straight people in the streets. The way society has shown me, drilled the idea into my head that finding a man is the thing I need to do as a young woman. Saw a family friend, a middle-aged school teacher the other day and she asked about my life. I told I had applied for a single. She asked me if it was because I had found some guy. Okay, it was annoying for her to assume that I need someone (as she implied that 'I'll find someone') and also that that someone would be a guy. What freaked me most is that it didn't sting as much as it used to, even last year! *sigh* I'm I turning back to guys again?! The heck!

That aside... I think that, in ten years or so, as I look my life forward, I'm living somewhere which isn't University housing. I have loads of books, maybe Nekku has a kitty friend. I have a job (hopefully) and I'm content. And what is there with me, sometimes not always, in that picture is a girl, a woman, not a guy. Softness and feminitiy. And if I get to have that... I might just wanna marry. And am glad I can have a legal binding. (Children I will not talk about in this post since that would lead to a lenghty rant about the new artificial insemination and sperm doning laws around here...)

*big hugs to all*

I'm hopings things at large would change for the better and people wouldn't be judged and treated differently due to sexual preference, race, sex or spiritual leanings. Maybe someday? <3


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