Happy single awareness day to ye all...

My life is over...

At least my life as such as I knew it. It will never be the same, never can be. Irrevocably ripped to schreds I must try to make do with what is left...

My first love is engaged. So I'll never be able to be with her. Out of reach, lost... For her to have such a commitment to another person is something even my insanely jealous mind can't try to break. I just can't. It's a sign of their deep devotion. Oh, how I shall rue the day they marry... And I don't think that I'll ever feel the same about valentine's day...

I am dead inside. Hollow. In mourning...

I want to do something drastic...